I didn't want to experience trauma or emotional scars, but now I've come to think that they're also what shaped me, so I don't think they're such a bad thing... Trauma and emotional scars have shaped my sensibilities and my personality. I'm scared of them disappearing, but I'm sure they'll never disappear.
Even if you face the past, you can't change it... You can only change the way you perceive it, and the trauma and emotional wounds won't go away, right?
It's necessary to control emotions caused by trauma, but I think there are people who are suited to facing trauma and not others... I wonder if it's even necessary... In fact, I've been getting more flare-ups and my autonomic nervous system is out of whack 😔
It's August 1st!! ️August has arrived!! ️It's summer! It's the beach!! It's boobs!! #BoobsDay
I like this kind of nonchalant thing the most...
I got something 🌹❤️🩹
I guess I'll drink it for now... Weird face.
I worked so hard to curl my hair inwards, why did it end up like this?
Thank you very much to everyone who has been watching Machiroku Channel. I have received many comments and have not been able to reply to them all, but I have read them all☺️🌸 There are only a limited number of things I can talk about, and it is difficult to put into words, so regardless of whether what I say is of interest to you or not, I am truly grateful to have had the opportunity to speak on Machiroku Channel.
More love, more freedom Things don't always go as you want them to A strong impulse, that's motto I feel like I can walk along singing it I feel like I'm being swallowed up by my paranoia Tomorrow is more, more dear I want more love Don't be in a hurry, love the present more, hey hey hey JUDY AND MARY "motto" @YouTube
I spoke as I am now. There are things I cannot speak about or face, and I am still in the middle of this process, but I hope to be able to naturally let myself go with the flow of time and believe in myself. The suffering of a former Unification Church member, the reason I became enlightened, the seduction disorder I fell into in high school, how to deal with the former Unification Church issue, Momo Yuri...
The street recording will be released at 6pm today.
Oh, by the way, some good memories from Cheongpyeong are: getting used to the harsh environment (but at the same time, it's unfortunate because I also felt a sense of rejection); learning to think that bad bread was delicious; making friends with people in the same situation; learning to think that bad food was delicious; and learning to sleep in a smelly, thin sleeping bag...
People with cancer, untreatable illnesses, mental illnesses, skin diseases, and various other illnesses went to Cheongpyeong and the former Cheongshin Hospital seeking help... I have seen people there whose condition did not improve and they even lost their lives, and I myself was not given any treatment...
I still empathize with my inner child, and even if I try to empathize with him, I still end up feeling the same way, which is why I think flashbacks happen... I still don't have the strength to tell myself, "It's okay now. I'm not scared anymore." I can't leave my inner child alone. I can't leave him alone...
What is it with people who forcibly dig into other people's traumas and wounds? Is it entertainment? Is it fun? Do you not understand the pain of others?
I don't know much about this, but I'm sorry to say that just seeing this made me think, "What is this guy talking about?" You're the one who's not listening to what people are saying in the first place.
Then came Bomber Head. How did this happen...?
Crying Rhapsody (It's not that I feel sorry for her or anything, I'm just showing it on purpose)
good night.
For some reason, this is the Andy I like the most❤️🩹
I'm tired of having my own emotions and thoughts. There are times when I just want to stop thinking. I want to follow without thinking. There are times when I wish I was brainwashed so that I could follow. It seems I'm tired of freedom.
By the way, I've always been a perfectionist, but because it was stressful and I couldn't make the most of my characteristics, I chose to do nothing. I think that's fine too, and as long as it keeps me mentally healthy, that's the choice I'm making at this stage (what I wrote below) 🧏🏻♀️❣️
[Perfectionism and cleaning] *If you don't have obsessive-compulsive disorder I'm like this too, but when I start cleaning, I want to clean every corner perfectly, as if I've lost my mind. I keep doing it until I'm satisfied, so I don't have the physical strength and it wears me down mentally. It's like I can't stop. Once I start, I can't stop, and...
Be careful.
I want to be a good woman, a woman that men want to chase... but I don't want a sick man, I want to be someone that men can feel safe with... but I'm destined to not be the hunted.
Memo for myself. It's important to be who you want to be, but it's also important to be who you want to be and be appreciated by those around you. Even if you're the only one who wants to be, it doesn't mean much if you're not reflected that way. That's what I've learned these days.
I wanted to make pickled cucumbers, so I was boiling them. But, maybe because I was tired, I got the steps wrong from the start, and the taste ended up being too strong. When I transferred them to a Tupperware container, the Tupperware melted. 🫠 I was supposed to let it cool.
Thank you🥹 That's better than anything🐜❤️🩹
Please take a look at this and relax...
Let it pass...
I'm tired. Sorry. I just want to keep smiling. I'm not really good at social media.
If you want to talk, make friends with people who have the same ideas... I don't want to be on a public account where all kinds of opinions fly around... It's a burden. All I can say is that politics affect our lives, so it's important to pay attention to them. I'm sick of politics and religion.
I feel really bad when I see people fighting over topics like religion and politics... 😩 That's why everyone avoids them...
The more you rush, the more likely you are to spin your wheels, so don't rush. The more you think about it, the less likely you are to get good results, so just take action. Don't be afraid of failure.
Apparently the malicious 🌙 has sunk. Thank you 🫶🏻❣️
I decided not to talk about complicated things. I can't do it. I'm not that smart.
I'm not a political account‼️ This is an account for adults to shout about their children‼️ Be careful. Don't look at the wrong account🧏🏻♀️❣️
I didn't go that far, but it's certainly true. It's a pretty oppressive world. The world needs to change so that it doesn't become like that... We've learned from history that a world where no one experiences and learns cannot produce peace.
Some people read each word individually, while others read by looking at the atmosphere or feeling.
If I may add something, it would be nice if they would let people know in advance that something like this might happen, and then let them go ahead and experience it with a good feeling.
I got some poop at the shooting gallery 💩 Uncle adjusted it for beginners and I managed to hit it twice... Uncle is lenient with women and children but strict with adults and men... Thank you for the poop 🫶🏻❣️
It's a shame to take away someone's experience.
A good teacher is someone who doesn't help students avoid failure, but allows them to fail and learn from it, helping them realize how to avoid failure.
I think it was really good that I stepped off the line. …
The tough version of Momoyuri is here. She's basically rude. She's angry at the world ❤️🔥
It's interesting and difficult because everyone has their own way of seeing and understanding others.
I'm a fool, I dream, I fail... I do something stupid again, then I see reality and I'm about to give up... but I'm still a fool. I think that's fine, and that's the only way to grow... so I want to be foolish again. With the attitude of a boy, the heart of a girl, and the rationality of an adult, I won't forget that. I'll continue to be foolish.
I guess I just need to think about my favorite idol now(*'∀'人)❤️🩹
Time difference and error.